the grass isn't always greener

Pulang abis ujian makro rasanya otak uda ngepul bgt (lebaaay,hhehe) jadi abis solat, makan dan nonton TV dla memutuskan untuk tidur saja, abis semlm baru tidur jam 3 dan jam setengah 5 uda bangun lagi (efek orang yang ga biasa minum kopi tapi blaguu..hehe)..So after I slept for about 2 hours I woke up at 5pm and saw the sky was pink..cantik banget langit hari itu, dan ga lama, mesjid deket rumah mengumandangkan surat Ar-Rahman (my favourit ) ..

Dan entah kenapa rasanya campur aduk banget…

“"Fabiayyi alai rabbikuma tukadziban (Maka nikmat Tuhan yang manakah yang kamu dustakan)"

Banyak banget nikmat yang kita dapet tapi tetep aja ga lepas dari keluhan-keluhan yang sebenernya kalo dibandingin sama nikmat yang uda di kasih kayanya kurang pantes…tapi tetep aja namanya manusia emang ga pernah puas ya…but you know what the grass isn’t always greener, and that evening made me realize that even though how tough life seems there’s always God that we can always count on..ga perlu ngeluh qo (at least I try not to), karena sebesar apapun masalah yang ada tetep aja besaran Allah…

mungkin agak aneh ya dla bisa bisanya ngomong kaya gini...heheh, kaya ngerasa diri udah bener ajaaa, ga malah, jauh...tapi ini cuma sekedar renungan ajaa...hehe 

good nite!

dreams

Tomorrow is my macroeconomics final exam, and other than studying, I don’t know why I decied to clean up my room instead..haha

 

When I was sorting the books, picture frames and all my crazy arts and craft stuff on my table I realized I had a pretty blue bowl full of paper stars..waah, ampe lupa punya bintang-bintang harapan (that’s what I call them because in almost every star I wrote my wishes and prayers in them), hehe…abis ketutupan sama kehebohan yang ada di meja dla…Kayanya uda lamaaaaa bgt dla bikin bintang-bintang itu, about 3 years ago when I first got in to high school..akhirnya dla iseng milih 3 bintang, penasaran pengen buka, pengen liat apa sih yang dla pgnin 3 taun yang lalu…

 

pas buka rasanya lucu aja...it made me smile, those simple prayers, silly hopes…

“semoga ayah beli HP baru biar HP ayah diturunin ke aku”

“semoga dla bias jadi anak pinter dan masuk IPA”

“Ya Allah, mavin semua salah dla yaaa”

And now as I open them 3 years later and I don’t even remember writing them…tapi ternyata those hopes did come true, jadi kentyataan qo dla akhirnya masuk IPA, and my dad also bought me a new cell phone (better than the one I wanted 3 years ago, hehe)..so now I realize even simple and silly prayers that maybe we didn’t really mean will be answered by God, maybe not now, but later when He thinks the time is right.

I remember my mom told me that Gaek (my grandpa) use to always tell my mom and her brothers and sisters to learn Japanese (Dulu Gaek itu kerjanya jadi pelaut di pertamina dan sering bolak balik ke Jepang) but until the day my grandpa died none of his kids could speak Japanese. But now almost 6 years after Gaek died, guess who’s learning the Japanese language..ME! Cucu pertamanya yang malah belajar bahasa Jepang… Even though Gaek is gone, but still Allah generously answered Gaeks wish.

Ga tau kenapa sekarang dla jadi punya keterikatan khusus sama hal-hal yang berhubungan sama hopes and dreams..hehe

Dreams, everyone has them..

some good, some bad, some knew they would forget, sometimes you realized you’ve out grown them, sometimes you feel like their finally coming true..but, no matter what you dream, when morning comes reality intrudes and your dreams start slipping away..but if you’re lucky that those dreams might just become your reality.. :)

dream big..and don’t be surprised what you’ll find when you reach for your dreams.. :)

bermimpilah, maka Allah akan memeluk mimpimu.

the pursuit of HAPPYness

this movie is one of the best movies i've ever seen :)

it makes me think,

hmm...kadang jadi suka mikir tentang kebahagiaan..

banyak arti "bahagia" itu sendiri buat setiap orang...

dari orang yang paling humble yang memnganggap kebahgiaan itu di dapat dari kebahgiaan orang lain sampe orang paling egois yang menganggap ga penting hidup orang lain kaya apa, perasaannya kaya gmna, yang penting dia bahagia...tapi buat dla pribadi, dla ga abis pikir sma tipe orang yang kedua..entah lah apa yang dipikirkan orang orang seperti ituu..hehe

dla sih paling setuju sama arti kebahagiaan yang ini..

"kebahagiaan yang kita cari di luar diri kita sendiri itu ga akan bisa kita capai, tapi kalo kebahgiaan itu kita cari di dalam diri kita dengan bersyukur dengan apa yang uda kita miliki, maka itulah kebahagiaan yang sebenarnya."

hehe, mungkin untuk saat ini belum bisa dibilang dla uda puas dengan hidup dla..but at least im happy and i didn't hurt anyone to get this happiness of mine...

biarlah dia menggonggong, biar orang lain saja yang menilai...

hihi

a new start, a new page :)

Happy new year everyone! ;)

A new year, and now I have a blog! Yippyyy! This blog is a part of my new year resolution. So from now on, I’m gonna try to write my everyday life, what I feel, and maybe things that aren’t important at all. hehe

Pertama-tama dla cuma mau sekedar menginformasikan klo dla ga biasa ngomong ‘gw-lw’ jadi tolong dimengerti.hehe ..oyaa, dla = dhilla = me. hehe

Well, right now I’d like to look back at my life.

19 tahun 4 bulan 14 hari.Selama itu uda d kasi kesempatan bwt ngejalanin hidup.

It’s been 19 years trying to live life to the fullest, and yes, no one can say that "playing" the game of life is simple. Klo bwt dla pribadi, my life is like a roller coaster. If people in life have a turning point, than 2009 changed my life totally and in so many ways.

Sesuatu terjadi di taun ini, ga bsa d bilang sesuatu yang menyenangkan, tapi bener2 bermakna, ngebuka mata, hati, telinga dan pikiran. It made me become a better person (or at least that’s how I feel). I got the most bitter medicine anyone can ever think of, but like most people say only the bitter medicine works.

Ga semua di 2009 ini menyedihkan, banyak banget hikmah yang dla dpt juga..banyak hikmah yang dla peroleh secara ga terduga, some I have never even dreamed of before.. bener2 ngebuktiin betapa Maha Adilnya Allah itu…alhamdulillah yang tak terhingga… :D

I’ve learned a lot about life this year, one lesson I learned is that mankind can only plan, tapi Allah lah yang menentukan..i know I was wrong back then..betapa sombongnya manusia ini dengan mengira bahwa apa yang uda direncanakan“pasti” bakal tercapai as long as we believe and all that blablabla talk, nutup mata buat semua kemungkinan lain yang bias aja terjadi, tapi Allah uda ngebuktiin betapa mudahnya membalikkan hati manusia dalam sekejap. Di dunia ini emang ga ada yang pasti, mungkin itu sebabnya kenapa kita ga boleh berharap sama orang lain karna cuma sama Allah kita boleh berharap. klo sama Allah berharap itu harus setinggi langit dan sedalam lautan, hhe.. dan kalo sma Allah kita ga akan kecewa.. ;)

God gives us what we need, not what we want..and I had to learn this the hard way.

Out here, how you live is who you are. A day starts before sunrise, and stretches until it’s too dark to see. The view changes but the land never does. It’s not where you end up, but what you do along the way. No roof but the sky, no walls but the wind, and some lucky people get to call it home. Out here there’s no such things as strangers. Just friends we haven’t met. Where the land seems to stretch out forever, theres always one time of the year when all trails lead home, because a person is what a person does. Walaupun di taun 2009 terbukti salah prinsip dla “I treat people the way I want to be treated so people will treat me the way I treat them” I won’t change the way I’ve always been. Call me stupid or dumb, but I believe being nice is the best way to live because I now know a person is what a person does. Hehehe

Buka mata, hati telinga sesugguhnya masih ada yang lebih penting dari sekedar kata cinta, yang kau inginkan tak selalu yang kau butuhkan..