JLPT

last sunday, i took the Japanese Language Proficiency Test (JLPT) level N4, there are 5 levels, starting from N5, and N1 as the highest. i was stressed out for almost 2 weeks because of it, and when the day finally came, i was the last person allowed in the testing room, yeah, i was late, hehehe, it's a long story but anyway, at least i was still allowed to do the test, Alhamdulillah :)
there were a lot of vocabularies that i didn't know, and for me it was pretty hard. well, not just the JLPT but japanese itself is really hard for me *personally.
i have a confession to make, "i've been in japan for almost 8 months but i still can't have a decent japanese conversation." 2 or 3 sentences is the best i would do and i wouldn't even try to say more, i'm just too afraid to try because i know i sound stupid, huuh, i know it's pathetic -__-
before i got here i thought learning japanese wouldn't be that different from english, but i was totally wrong, japanese is so much harder from any point of view, the grammar, vocabularies, kanji, it's all so different! Sometimes i just want to give up, but somehow after doing this JLPT test it lit up a small hope that maybe someday i will get better, i just need more time and practice, yeah i need lots and lots of practice..
がんばります～ :)