Isn't it funny how time works. Sometimes we're so sure that we're ready for something but it just never happens, while in other times we have no clue whats happening but it just does, right in front of our eyes.
I remember always feeling intimidated by the thought of having such a mysterious future. Scared of the thought that i might become a total failure in every single aspect. Not ready to be faced with those questions that will always become other people's expectations. But I guess now I have realised something different.
"Allah itu sesuai prasangka hambaNya."
God will always meet our presumptions. Meaning if we do have faith in Him, then He will eventually give us what we need, at the right time, at the right place.
I realised that I was feeling scared and intimidated cause I had no control on what will happen in the future. No matter how hard I would plan or try, the last decision is still not mine to make. Why was I scared? Because I wasn't sure there would be "someone" there to catch me when I fall, without realising that He was always there. Always. Waiting for me to ask Him for His help.
Yes, thats what I had forgotten, I forgot to ask. Being such the snob that I am, I forgot the most important aspect in my life.
Sometimes we're so busy denying the things around us that we forget to ask for help. But when we do eventually take the time to do so, there would be no problem unturned nor unsolved.
Allah always has better plans for us, even when we think they aren't. :)
*Just a self reminder to end the night*