Friday, December 31, 2010


2010 was a lot of things to me.
many things that i thought weren't possible happened this year, and most of them were good things (Alhamdulillah).
many big questions in my life were answered this year, and most answers were what i know now is the best i could ever get.
this year i felt feelings that i've never felt before, and i'm grateful for every single one of them.
and most importantly, this year i was shown how much my family really means to me. 

dear 2010,
thank you for giving me people that loved, cared, hurt, worried, left, stayed, and cherished me in their own way, because those people are the reason i am who i am today.

i know a lot is in store for the year 2011, and i'm willing to give it my all.
happy new year everyone, may 2011 become the year when we become a better person for the people we love, people around us, and most importantly; for our selves. :)

Monday, December 13, 2010

the ticket

today i've been blogwalking to a few blogs, random blogs actually, but, entah secara kebetulan atau gimana, most of them were young moms, and reading their blogs makes me want to have a family of my own, secepatnya, hehehe, noo~ don't worry,  i'm just kidding, but in a way it's true too, their stories were really really beautiful..kayanya seru punya keluarga kecil sendiri, apalagi kalau jauh dari kampung halaman.
ninit yunita's blog was one of my favorites, she's one of my favorite writers too since i was in high school, her books test pack and kok putusin gw is a must read! i've read test pack 3 times but i still love it :)
anyway, there was this one, *well a few actually*, that i really really liked, but "a ticket to find your soulmate" was the one i loved can read it yourself but i liked it so much i can't stand not to quote it.
"Sometimes I wonder.
Maybe God gave us a ‘ticket’ to find your soulmate.
He is somewhere waiting for you at the airport.
Kita tidak pernah tahu berapa kali kita harus transit.
Kita tidak pernah tahu berapa kali kita harus mengalami patah hati.
Kita tidak pernah tahu kapan kita sampai.
One thing is for sure, when he proposed me… I know I have arrived to the right destination.
I checked the ticket.
I smiled.
perumpamaan jodoh dengan tiket emang pas banget menurut dla, i totally agree, kita emang ga akan pernah tahu sampai kita benar-benar sampai at our destination.
my flight might still be long until i reach the full stop to my destination, i've passed paradise, had turbulence, transited for vacations and got stuck in hurricanes from time to time, and there is probably still more to come, but one day when i finally arrive, all i hope for is that it would all feel right and i would know that the right person will be waiting for me at the airport of soulmate.
yeah, someday, that day, one day :)

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Saturday, December 11, 2010

actually there wasn't really anything special about this this date, i just wanted to share about the day i had yesterday :)
it was a normal Saturday and it started with doing the usual cleaning routine with the other indonesians. In the afternoon, after having lunch at home, edhika, Mba rany and I went to Royal Host to try the new ice cream, it was a special winter menu..kalau buat dla sih tujuan utama makan es krim itu karena salah satu toppingnya ada MACARON,  hehe, yeah, mungkin dla emang norak, cuman uda lama banget pengen nyobain kue itu, hehe, it looks soo cute, and it was really really good! おいしかった :)
macaron :)

after maghrib, at around 5pm, edhika, akira, rama and i went to shinjuku to see the winter illuminations, we also brought our danbos so they could play together..hehe
we were all so busy taking picture of our danbos that a lot of people asked us what we were holding, there was even a girl that wanted to take a picture of us and our danbos..hehe
our danbos

the illumination bellow is really popular for couples, each couple will go to the middle of the tree and press a button together, then the tree will light up a color, and each color has a different meaning, look at the line, everyone wanted to try it..hehe
to end the day, we eat soba and road our bikes back home from the station. well, yesterday was really fun, so i guess after having fun today its time to clean my room, cook, and do my homework..hope you had a wonderful weekend too :)

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

daddy's girl

Today i had a little chat with my dad, we didn't talk about anything too serious, we just talked about our day and new things that happened in the past week, he told me how he, my little brother, and my cousin went fishing the other day, he told me that they brought home 15 fishes! Wow, i thought, for someone who went fishing for the first time, they must be really good at it. But, actually it turned out that the fish that they actually caught were only 3, but they bought another 12 just to show off to my mom..hehe, and than it just hit me, im really missed out on a lot of things while i'm here. :(
My dad also told me about a new business he's doing and he apologized for not asking my permission first before he actually did it. i laughed when he said that, i said "dad, it's your money, you don't need my permission :)" and guess what he said in return "no, dear, nothing is my money, it's our money, the family's money."
i have to admit, my dad isn't always the first person i come to when i have a problem, and the one that knows all my stories is my mom not my dad, but my dad too has a very special place that no one else can replace. He's the one i can always count on, he's the one that the whole family can count on no matter what. My dad might not know this, but indirectly i have learned so much from him. He taught me how to give, and to care silently. He taught me to be grateful, and never gets tired of reminding me to be grateful for everything i have in life.
Dad, i know you might not read this, but i just want to say thank you, for everything you are and you gave. thank you, i could never pay you back.
When i was about to leave for japan i made my dad a video, its horrible actually, i didn't have much time to make it, but, this is the video. :)

despite how hard being a dad may be, im lucky to have a dad like my dad, and a loving family like mine, you guys mean the world to me ;)
and someday when i have a husband of my own i hope he'll be as great as my dad ;p


last sunday, i took the Japanese Language Proficiency Test (JLPT) level N4, there are 5 levels, starting from N5, and N1 as the highest. i was stressed out for almost 2 weeks because of it, and when the day finally came, i was the last person allowed in the testing room, yeah, i was late, hehehe, it's a long story but anyway, at least i was still allowed to do the test, Alhamdulillah :)
there were a lot of vocabularies that i didn't know, and for me it was pretty hard. well, not just the JLPT but japanese itself is really hard for me *personally.
i have a confession to make, "i've been in japan for almost 8 months but i still can't have a decent japanese conversation." 2 or 3 sentences is the best i would do and i wouldn't even try to say more, i'm just too afraid to try because i know i sound stupid, huuh, i know it's pathetic -__-
before i got here i thought learning japanese wouldn't be that different from english, but i was totally wrong, japanese is so much harder from any point of view, the grammar, vocabularies, kanji, it's all so different! Sometimes i just want to give up, but somehow after doing this JLPT test it lit up a small hope that maybe someday i will get better, i just need more time and practice, yeah i need lots and lots of practice..
がんばります~ :)