Saturday, February 26, 2011

happy birthday, ibu ♥

I find myself wondering...
Did I give you your due?
For all that you've done for me
Did I ever thank you?

For all of my childhood memories
For helping me deal with life's stresses
For helping me accept my defeats
And celebrate my successes?
Or for teaching me the value of hard work,
Good judgment, courage, and being true?
The laughter, smiles, and quiet times we've shared
Did I ever thank you? 

If I have forgotten, I'm thanking you now
You taught me right from wrong....
I hope you know how much you're loved and appreciated
I hope you, instinctively, knew all along.
Happy Birthday momma :)
I hope that when you think of me, there's a part of you that you'll always see..

Ibu, when i tell you, you mean the world to me. Believe me that you really do, and maybe even the world isn't enough to tell you how you really do mean to me. :')

Sunday, February 6, 2011

lazy saturday

today i spent all day in my room doing so many random things,an example is i cooked salmon with carrots and onions! what was i thinking? (`へ´) *hehehe, but it didn't taste as bad as it sounds.
another thing i did was customizing my blog, yeaaay (^ε^)~

my current theme is water paint! and i made it myself. what do you think? for me personally; i have to be honest, i love it! hehehe :D
i got the picture for my header from here

oh ya, i've been watching "Life Unexpected" recently and i can't believe that on the 13th episode the first season ended, was really good..they say its like Gilmore Girls and Juno put together, and since Gilmore Girls is one of my all time favorite series, Life Unexpected became the runner up. anyway i'm gonna quote from a scene at the end of the last episode :
The laws of physics are basically the laws of life. With all the unpredictable chaos around us there are certain universal constants. Gravity, the speed of light… These constants never change. Even when everything else around them does. Life is full of unknowns and when those unknowns are too overwhelming, it’s the constants that we have to hold onto. Like our friends, the ones who are not afraid to tell us that there’s no such thing as normal. The ones who have been in our lives for every minute with you, even the hardest minutes. Like those who could have walked away, but chose to stick around. Even though they had their own lives, families, their own children. Like our parents. Because we wouldn’t be here without them. Who pick us up when we fall, who come when we call them, who answer when we knock. We all learned what a light-year is. And these years together have been our light-years. The years where everything became brighter, where we learned that the bright spots in our life aren’t merely spots, but constants. And no matter where I go or what I do, you are my constant.
honestly, i hate physics, and i never thought of life as physics, but i have to agree with the concept above.
no matter how much our life changes, but there are always things that remain constant. there are always those people that will always be our constant.
for everyone who could have walked away but chose to stick around; thank you for always being my constants.

Saturday, February 5, 2011

hati, mata, telinga (?)

"diberi jantung, malah minta hati, mata, telinga..."
                                                                                         fufufu,  -___-"

iya, kalau di dalam bahasa Indonesia memang ada peribahasa "diberi jantung minta hati." tapi klo menurut dla ini sih uda bukan minta hati aja. it's just too much. dan bodohnya, i gave it away, even though i know that they don't deserve any of it. what so ever.  

looking back

yeaay, my final exams are finally over! ♪♪(^ε^)
yeah, it's my final exam, that means this March i'm gonna be a sophomore *again* hehe..i just can't believe that i've been here for a whole school year (10months to be exact), it just seems like yesterday i arrived at Narita for the first time; it's still so fresh in my mind how happy Akira (my batch mate) and i were when we heard all the Japanese that were coming out of the airplane  saying "samui ne..*it's cold*" and we were laughing (dengan noraknya kalo diinget-inget lagi sekarang,hehe) because we actually knew what it meant, "samui" were one of the very few Japanese words i knew when i first arrived in Japan. I remember seeing the the cherry blossoms for the first time, and sitting beside Max (my 190cm tall friend) in the entrance ceremony and feeling like a tiny smurf compared to him. I also remember how confused it felt coming in to the University's cafeteria and ordering food from a vending machine, i remember seeing my friend Mook for the first time and thinking she looked like a magazine model, i even remember what clothes i were wearing on that day..all those small things sum up to a great memory for me. a priceless experience of a lifetime :)

looking back in life things can be so unpredictable. one of the things that made me realize this was because of a chat conference i had with my mom last night. all of a sudden my mom told me that sometimes she still can't believe that i'm here in Tokyo far away from her, far away from the family, doing everything by myself without her by my side *most of the times*. siapa yang bakal nyangka kalau dla bakal ketemu keluarga dla paling bagus setaun dua kali, atau paling tidak setaun sekali. and sometimes, to be honest, for me it's kinda hard.
this doesn't just go for me, but for everyone out there; "who ever thought they would be living a life that they are living right now.." no matter how well organized and planned out you had your life in store for you, but still it could never, NEVER, go out according to plan. akan selalu ada rezeki yang tak terduga, pelajaran-pelajaran yang harus dipelajari, secret happiness, and paths that we have to go through whether we like it or not. than again, destiny is what brings you back in place. Allah's decisions. you can deny it all you want, i know i do sometimes, but i know later in the future, we'll understand why we had to do what we had to do.

anywaaay, today i had a girls day out with Mook before she went back to Thailand for the spring holiday. We went to Harajuku and Shibuya. it was so much fun. we went to Kiddy Land and spent so much time looking at all the cute things inside, there was this really cute schedule book that i really really wanted to buy, but i decided destiny to tell me if i had to buy it or not. i'm planning to go there again in the next week; if the schedule book is still there than that book was destined for me and i'm gonna buy it, but if it isn't than i'll just have to buy another one, that is cheaper, hahaha (actually another reason i'm doing this, is because i'm gonna save some of my money first, because for a schedule book it's pretty pricey. hihi) :p

 this is the front of Kiddy Land. look at elmo, he's soo cute! >,<

note to myself : huaa, i can't believe that i'm gonna be a senpai *senior* soon, i don't even know if i'm ready! T^T