2010

2010 was a lot of things to me.

many things that i thought weren't possible happened this year, and most of them were good things (Alhamdulillah).

many big questions in my life were answered this year, and most answers were what i know now is the best i could ever get.

this year i felt feelings that i've never felt before, and i'm grateful for every single one of them.

and most importantly, this year i was shown how much my family really means to me. 

dear 2010,

thank you for giving me people that loved, cared, hurt, worried, left, stayed, and cherished me in their own way, because those people are the reason i am who i am today. ♥

i know a lot is in store for the year 2011, and i'm willing to give it my all.
happy new year everyone, may 2011 become the year when we become a better person for the people we love, people around us, and most importantly; for our selves. :)

the ticket

today i've been blogwalking to a few blogs, random blogs actually, but, entah secara kebetulan atau gimana, most of them were young moms, and reading their blogs makes me want to have a family of my own, secepatnya, hehehe, noo~ don't worry,  i'm just kidding, but in a way it's true too, their stories were really really beautiful..kayanya seru punya keluarga kecil sendiri, apalagi kalau jauh dari kampung halaman.
ninit yunita's blog was one of my favorites, she's one of my favorite writers too since i was in high school, her books test pack and kok putusin gw is a must read! i've read test pack 3 times but i still love it :)
anyway, there was this one, *well a few actually*, that i really really liked, but "a ticket to find your soulmate" was the one i loved most..you can read it yourself but i liked it so much i can't stand not to quote it.

"Sometimes I wonder.
Maybe God gave us a ‘ticket’ to find your soulmate.
He is somewhere waiting for you at the airport.
Kita tidak pernah tahu berapa kali kita harus transit.
Kita tidak pernah tahu berapa kali kita harus mengalami patah hati.
Kita tidak pernah tahu kapan kita sampai.

One thing is for sure, when he proposed me… I know I have arrived to the right destination.
I checked the ticket.
I smiled."

perumpamaan jodoh dengan tiket emang pas banget menurut dla, i totally agree, kita emang ga akan pernah tahu sampai kita benar-benar sampai at our destination.
my flight might still be long until i reach the full stop to my destination, i've passed paradise, had turbulence, transited for vacations and got stuck in hurricanes from time to time, and there is probably still more to come, but one day when i finally arrive, all i hope for is that it would all feel right and i would know that the right person will be waiting for me at the airport of soulmate.

yeah, someday, that day, one day :)

Saturday, December 11, 2010

actually there wasn't really anything special about this this date, i just wanted to share about the day i had yesterday :)

it was a normal Saturday and it started with doing the usual cleaning routine with the other indonesians. In the afternoon, after having lunch at home, edhika, Mba rany and I went to Royal Host to try the new ice cream, it was a special winter menu..kalau buat dla sih tujuan utama makan es krim itu karena salah satu toppingnya ada MACARON,  hehe, yeah, mungkin dla emang norak, cuman uda lama banget pengen nyobain kue itu, hehe, it looks soo cute, and it was really really good! おいしかった :)

macaron :)

 

after maghrib, at around 5pm, edhika, akira, rama and i went to shinjuku to see the winter illuminations, we also brought our danbos so they could play together..hehe

we were all so busy taking picture of our danbos that a lot of people asked us what we were holding, there was even a girl that wanted to take a picture of us and our danbos..hehe

our danbos

the illumination bellow is really popular for couples, each couple will go to the middle of the tree and press a button together, then the tree will light up a color, and each color has a different meaning, look at the line, everyone wanted to try it..hehe

to end the day, we eat soba and road our bikes back home from the station. well, yesterday was really fun, so i guess after having fun today its time to clean my room, cook, and do my homework..hope you had a wonderful weekend too :)

daddy's girl

Today i had a little chat with my dad, we didn't talk about anything too serious, we just talked about our day and new things that happened in the past week, he told me how he, my little brother, and my cousin went fishing the other day, he told me that they brought home 15 fishes! Wow, i thought, for someone who went fishing for the first time, they must be really good at it. But, actually it turned out that the fish that they actually caught were only 3, but they bought another 12 just to show off to my mom..hehe, and than it just hit me, im really missed out on a lot of things while i'm here. :(

My dad also told me about a new business he's doing and he apologized for not asking my permission first before he actually did it. i laughed when he said that, i said "dad, it's your money, you don't need my permission :)" and guess what he said in return "no, dear, nothing is my money, it's our money, the family's money."

i have to admit, my dad isn't always the first person i come to when i have a problem, and the one that knows all my stories is my mom not my dad, but my dad too has a very special place that no one else can replace. He's the one i can always count on, he's the one that the whole family can count on no matter what. My dad might not know this, but indirectly i have learned so much from him. He taught me how to give, and to care silently. He taught me to be grateful, and never gets tired of reminding me to be grateful for everything i have in life.

Dad, i know you might not read this, but i just want to say thank you, for everything you are and you gave. thank you, i could never pay you back.

When i was about to leave for japan i made my dad a video, its horrible actually, i didn't have much time to make it, but, this is the video. :)

despite how hard being a dad may be, im lucky to have a dad like my dad, and a loving family like mine, you guys mean the world to me ;)

and someday when i have a husband of my own i hope he'll be as great as my dad ;p

JLPT

last sunday, i took the Japanese Language Proficiency Test (JLPT) level N4, there are 5 levels, starting from N5, and N1 as the highest. i was stressed out for almost 2 weeks because of it, and when the day finally came, i was the last person allowed in the testing room, yeah, i was late, hehehe, it's a long story but anyway, at least i was still allowed to do the test, Alhamdulillah :)
there were a lot of vocabularies that i didn't know, and for me it was pretty hard. well, not just the JLPT but japanese itself is really hard for me *personally.
i have a confession to make, "i've been in japan for almost 8 months but i still can't have a decent japanese conversation." 2 or 3 sentences is the best i would do and i wouldn't even try to say more, i'm just too afraid to try because i know i sound stupid, huuh, i know it's pathetic -__-
before i got here i thought learning japanese wouldn't be that different from english, but i was totally wrong, japanese is so much harder from any point of view, the grammar, vocabularies, kanji, it's all so different! Sometimes i just want to give up, but somehow after doing this JLPT test it lit up a small hope that maybe someday i will get better, i just need more time and practice, yeah i need lots and lots of practice..
がんばります～ :)

lil' Mibo episode 6 : starbucks

"uuww, white nutty mocha, おいしいそう～"

 "now i'm all full..hehehe"

lil' Mibo episode 5 : feeding the cat

"hey cat, here's your food, come on eat up!"

"here pussy pussy pusssy, it's your lunch..eat, eat!"

 "....eat please?"

"...okay fine don't eat..."

lil' Mibo episode 4 : reading practise

"a book! and it's about a bunny, lets read!"

 

"no kanjis? now this is my kind of book! :)"

 "newspaper are the worst! i don't know most of the kanjis here... -___-"

lil Mibo episode 3 : first autumn

"yeay! autumn is really here! let's take a walk..lalala~ "

 "it's so cold! brrr~ , i think i'll pile the leaves and make myself a bed! :) "

 "nap time! おやすみなさい！"

lil' Mibo episode 2 : hajimemashite!

"i haven't introduced my self properly on the first episode, so here it goes;

hi! my name is lil' Mibo and i'm starting go get use to my new life in Japan. right now i'm having a really hard time learning japanese, but at least i'm trying! hehe :)

はじめまして　私　は　Lil' Mibo です。　よろしく　お願いします。"

cards

Doing arts and crafts is really something i looove doing, it's my passion! *haha, no not really, i'd be saying too much if i said that* So when ever i get the chance to make something, anything for someone at an occasion  i feel really really happy and i enjoy doing it. It's been quite a while since i made anything special, but yesterday i got the chance *and time* to make birthday cards! :)
i made 3 cards, one for Edhika from  us, at PPI (persatuan pelajar indonesia) Nodai, another for Akira also from PPI Nodai, and the last for Edhika again but from me personally. It's simple, and was really easy to make, but still i really enjoyed doing it and i hope they liked it as much as i liked making them! hehe

i don't really know yet what i want to be when i'm older, but after watching 500 days of summer i thought of working in a card company, like hallmark, because i always liked cards, even since i was in elementary school i really love making cards (ask my mom, she got a lot, even cards that aren't important at all, hehe), but  i don't know it's just a silly dream i have, and maybe someday it will happen or maybe it won't, but still i'll always like making cards. even though i'm not good at it either. hehe :)

little note : happy birthday Edhikaaaa, hope you have and had a great one :*

song of the week

every week usually there's this one song that i'll listen to over and over again..hehe

this week it's this song :)

i love it!

i accedentally found it when i was looking for something else and when i listened to it i instantly fell in love..hehe

Priscillia Ahn might not be that popular but she's better than some that are, and she's pretty too! :)

my first and unforgettable Shuukakusai

So, i might have told you a little bit about Shuukakusai, well, the second day was horrible, it was pouring rain, really cold, so cold that right after the noodles were made it became cold, and the worse part is we only got to open until 12 o'clock because there was a typhoon! huaa, uda lemes aja hari itu, we were all thinking of the worse, dan uda ga ada deh berharap bakal balik modal..dan lebih parahnya lagi the committee were thinking of not having the 3rd day of Shuukakusai if the weather was still bad, but dreams really do come true, the next day it was sunny :)

the third day was really tiring, there was a really loooong line waiting to buy mie goreng! seneng banget deh rasanya, even though everyone was tired, kita semua tetap semangat..hehe..this was my first Shuukakusai experience, it was bitter but sweet, and also unforgettable! :)

this is a picture taken before we opened our stand on the third day of Shuukakusai :

 

and this is a picture of us after having a post evaluation meeting, kumel, cape, bau mie, tapi senang! otsukaresamadeshita :)

my staff card :

and this is a picture of me and Edhika with the miniature of the house from one of my favourite movies ; UP! :)

 

this is a picture taken on the 2nd day, it's me and a monster..hehe

note : most pictures were taken from Mba Rany's camera, thank you mbaaa :) 

収穫祭, harvest festival ; H-1

Tomorrow is my university's 119th (if I'm not mistaken) shukakusai which means harvest festival. Nodai is really famous for it's harvest festival, and this year, like the years before, the Indonesians get to have our own stand and sell Indonesian mie goreng! :)

yeay, i'm so excited, this is my first time. Today we went to the market and set put the tent, but unfortunately the weather in Tokyo isn't really great, today was 11 degree Celsius and its still autumn! the weather forecast even predicted that there will be typhoon for the next couple of days, but we're all hoping the weather forecast is wrong..

wish us luck, please :)

the best scene :)

the last two days i watched the latest episode of gossip girl. and after searching and searching for that clip of that scene, i finally found it.. :}

my favorite scene is only the beginning part though..

 

okay, so maybe for people that doesn't watch gossip girl there's nothing special about this scene, but if you know the story behind chuck and blair, this scene is the best! :')

"it was no one's fault. it was fate, tragedy. 

if only many things didn't happen....maybe things would be different, but it's not.

you're holding on to the pain because it's all we have left, but we don't have to. we have a choice."

-Gossip Girl

the song choice was perfect too, now i can't get it out of my head. :) click here to listen.

lil' Mibo episode 1: missing them

lil' Mibo, is short for little miss danbo ♥ 

and this is the first, so called episodes, of her's..

 

 after adding some effects at adobe photoshop :)

rainbow ♥

i love the rain, i love the smell of wet soil, the cold but warm feeling i get in the inside..

but more than anything, i love rainbows ♥

today is a rainy day, not heavy rain, just a light shower, and the weather is great! Autumn is my 2nd favorite season after winter..hehe

anyway, i love rainbows so much that's why my blog's title has something to do with rainbows :)

i don't just like how beautiful a rainbow is, but also the philosophy behind it. its as if a rainbow is one of God's proof that after something bad, or sad, there will always be something better waiting for you. maybe that's why our tear drops are water and not snow..hehe, maybe, just maybe..
right now on this rainy day, i'm listening to this song, hoping that today i might see a rainbow :)

 

"who ever you are, where will you be?

are you the same old dreamer out there waiting only for me?

waiting for love? waiting for the same old dreamer on the other side?

hoping that no matter how far i am gonna find my way to you, 

following a rainbow."

♥

perahu kertas

 Perahu kertas is one of my favorite books. It is written by Dewi Lestari (Dee) an inspiring Indonesian women. I got it as a birthday present from one of my best friends *thank you :}*. The book was actually really simple but not easy, it was smart but not difficult, sweet but not soggy, hehe, i know I'm so sorry, I might be really really bad with words, but i don't know how to quite describe it, you should read it for yourself and than you'll know what i mean.
You might have noticed that i'm a really melancholic type of girl with a really soft (no that's not right), easily touched (?) heart *lembek maksudnya aduh apa ya bahasa inggrisnya, tapi ga cengeng (not anymore that is), cengengnya cuman kalau nonton film sedih ajaa,hehe*. And this book touched my heart in so many ways..there's a lot of really good words and lessons i got from it, i liked it so much i even took pictures of it..too bad i left the book at home. and these are what I'd like to share :

quote #1 :
"Hati tidak pernah memilih. Hati dipilih. Hati tak perlu memilih. Ia selalu tahu kemana harus berlabuh. "
translation : "A heart never chooses, because it will be chosen. A heart doesn't need to choose, because it always knows where it should go."

 if you think about it, it's really true. in ever situation there's always that little voice inside of you, but it's our decision to listen to it or ignore it. in the end if it was never meant to be, than it will never be meant for us. no matter how hard you try, no matter how hard you guard it, if it wasn't meant to be than you have to face it, let it go and prepare your self for a better answer. the answer that was meant to be. if you have to change who you are, than you know it wasn't destined to be yours.

quote #2

"Jatuh sedikit-sedikit, jangan sekaligus. Lebih baik tunggu sampai hatinya sembuh dan memutuskan dalam keadaan jernih, tanpa bayang-bayang siapapun."

translation : "If you fall its better to fall little by little, than to fall too hard at one time. It's better to wait until his/her (in this book's case it's his) heart has healed and decided in a clear condition, without the shadows of anyone else."

hmmm, if you're living in the shadows of somebody else than it's not worth it, you deserve to be yourself, to be happy and loved by the way you are, not by the way someone or something or some condition wants you to be. you deserve a happy life, a life you can call your own. and if by being yourself still didn't work out than don't force it to, it might not be your destiny. Let go, no matter how hard letting go might be, because if you don't, you'll never know what you've been missing out on. God doesn't give you what you want, but He gives you what you need, at the perfect time too. And if God takes something away from you, He promised that He will give you something better to replace it; cause in life, God will give you people that will hurt you, love you, to make learn and become the incredible person you were meant to be.

 

these are just my thoughts and some lessons i have learned in the past years and because of this book, it inspired *and reminded* me to write this, and so now, here it is, being shared with all of you.
i know life isn't easy for anybody, so i hope this has helped your life become a tiny winy bit better. :)

bedspreads ♥

Even though today wasn't that sunny, i don't know why but i felt like washing my bed spread, blanket, and towels. After it was dry, i cleaned my whole room and put on the clean bedspread. I know this is totally random, but i just wanted to tell you that i have a thing with new bedspreads, not new as in just bought, but new from the laundry or closet..i love sleeping in the smell of clean sheets, it feels so comfy, and somehow close to home. :) i know it sounds so weird, but i'm just wondering, is this just me or does anybody else has this feeling too?

I try to change my sheets as often as i can, every week usually, but still i never get bored with that comfortable feeling it gives me. ♥

good night, sleep tight, can't wait to get to sleep. ;)

goody bag!

After a long and tiring jog alone while listening to monkey majik, i decided to reward myself with a cup of Starbucks frozen drink, hehehehe, since i only had 500 yen in my pocket so i wasn't really sure what i wanted but i went anyway. Starbucks was inside a book store named Tsutaya, so before i ordered i went to see some books first. After looking, and going round and round in circles, a small shelf caught my eye. It was a shelf full of goody bags, one of them were 500 yen, as much money as i had, and i dont know why, after thinking for about 15 minutes i decided to buy it! hahaha, dodol emang si dhilla!

but it was okay, and there were a lot of things inside it! emang sih ada beberapa yang ga penting, tapi entah kenapa ada rasa kepuasan sendiri aja..hihi
*oh yeah, and of course i didn't buy a drink, but i went home with a big smile on my face :}

bahasa, 語, language.

As usual I had class today and as my lecturer was talking i wrote down a quick note so that i wouldn't forget to include them in my presentation next week. I wrote in Indonesian : "Apa yg mau didpt dri org yg nontonnya apa dri presentasi kita."  Akira *my Indonesian friend* wasn't sitting very far away from me and read my note, and he said "Itu maksudnya apa dhil?" while taking my paper away. And after he said that i just realized how messy and totally wrong my Indonesian grammar is! Haha, we started to laugh. I wasn't using English grammar, or even Japanese grammar, it was a mixture of Indonesian, Japanese and English grammar put together. This is a picture of my note i was talking about.

 

Now I understand why my seniors always say that after living here for quite some time they get the languages mixed up. Living in Japan while having very minim Japanese ability, talking to Indonesians with Bahasa Indonesia, and having to communicate with friends all over the world with different English abilities is kind of a really fun challenge. Maybe my English didn't improve, my Japanese is getting a tiny winy bit better everyday, and my Indonesian is getting mixed up with all the other languages, but there are 2 abilities that are improving day by day. Body language and guessing. hehe :)

I really want to learn other languages, like Spanish and French, but i hope my Japanese will be much much ore better by than, 

dear John's soundtrack

my two most favorite songs in the movie "dear John" : 

Amanda Seyfried - Little House

 

Joshua Radin - Paperweights  

smoked salmon and vegetables quiche

Today mba Rany, edhika, kiki and i joined mba Mel's cooking class, it was at ABC cooking's lounge in Ginza, the place was really cozy, it even had a a dresser with free perfume, a lazy-boy chair, tv, vending machines, even a hair curler!  We learned how to make smoked salmon and vegetables quiche, it was simple and soooo goood :)

now it makes me want to buy an oven more and more,huhu..

here are some pictures :)

 

 

 with Edhika and Mba Rany ;)